My cute Eli,
I love you so much and am so grateful that you’ve joined our family! After having your brother join us eight weeks earlier than we’d planned, I was very nervous that you’d do the same. The closer we got to the third trimester the better I felt about your health, but I was very nervous leading up to your 32 week mark.
Hospital Stays
On October 3rd I started feeling some light contractions. They calmed down after a bit, so I just started taking it easier around the house (AKA I stopped working on my dining room chair DIY project). I was 30 weeks pregnant, so I didn’t want you coming yet! From Oct 5th to the 8th I got to watch my cute baby Roze (Shantell’s baby girl who is a little older than Evan). We had a lot of fun and I got to take her and your big brother Evan to the children’s museum on the 6th. Well, that might have been a bit too much activity for me because that night I woke up from contractions. Evan and Roze were both sleeping in bed with us by the time I woke up, so I moved out to the living room and called Dr. Peacock (my OBGYN) before your dad woke up to go to work. She told me that I could wait to come in and see her as opposed to going into the hospital because my contractions had calmed down some. So with that plan, dad stayed home from work and we went in to see Dr. Peacock that morning. When Dr. Peacock checked my cervix I was dilated to 1 cm, so I got my first betamethasone shot - a steroid that helped your lungs develop faster. We knew you weren’t coming yet, but with labor having started it was assumed that you’d be joining us sooner than we’d like. The next day I got my 2nd shot. I still wanted you to stay safe inside me for a few more weeks, but I knew that getting your betamethasone shot would help you a lot if you decided it was time to come. I felt much better once you’d had both doses of “your” shot (I say your shot, but I was the one who got stabbed in the butt for you to get that medicine).

On October 9th I had your aunt Lexie take some maternity photos because I knew you’d be coming soon! I was so sad that I didn’t get to take maternity photos when I was pregnant with Evan, so I made it a priority this time! They turned out so cute!


On October 10th I went in for a checkup with Dr. Peacock. When she was talking to me initially we made a plan for me to come in again at the end of the week. When she checked my cervix however, I was dilated to a three! We adjusted our plans and set another appointment for two days later. I didn’t end up making it to that appointment however, because I ended up going to the hospital that night! You were 31 weeks and 1 day gestation, so we had to travel to the Murray hospital as the close hospital (Riverton) wouldn’t admit me until you were 32 weeks gestation.
Upon getting admitted I got ready to meet you! I got an epidural and an IV started. Through my IV, the doctors gave me some magnesium. Magnesium is given to women who are in labor before their baby is 32 weeks gestation, so I didn’t have this medicine with Evan. Magnesium helps prevent brain bleeds in premature babies. Because I follow a lot of NICU accounts on instagram I’d heard about the benefits of this medicine. I also knew that it was not a pleasant medicine to get. My nurse offered anti-nausea medicine prior to starting the magnesium, and I said yes! The doctors started the magnesium fast, to get as much as possible into my body as quickly as possible, but then tapered it off after an hour. I was very dizzy during that first hour, but luckily not too nauseous. After they slowed the medicine I started feeling much better. My epidural was also kicked in at this point so I couldn’t feel much in the way of contractions. Well spoiler alert, you didn’t come that night. I dilated to six centimeters then stopped progressing. After my contractions stopped they turned off my epidural and the magnesium. I spent the next 5 days at the Murray hospital working, doing homework, and watching a lot of TV. Though there were a few times when I thought I may be going into labor again, I stayed put at six centimeters and the hospital let me go home when you were 31 weeks and 6 days gestation. They made me promise to keep you in another day, because once you hit 32 weeks gestation I could go to the Riverton hospital to deliver you! The worst part of this hospital stay was getting my epidural out! Getting the epidural removed didn’t hurt, I don’t think getting an epidural put in hurts that much to be honest, but I didn’t want to get it removed only to go back into active labor again. I asked them to keep it in for an extra night, but after a day and a half of no progression the nurse removed it. I cried two or three times about getting the epidural removed because I was scared that I’d have to deliver you naturally if you came too fast. Even if we had time to put another one in, I didn’t want to have to get poked in the back again! Luckily you stayed put and I got to go home with you still safe inside me.
The day after coming home, October 16th, I went to get checked at the Riverton Hospital because I was having contractions again. It was our friend Logan’s birthday, so I told him that if you were born on his birthday I would name you Logan. When we went in to get checked I told your dad that this was you picking your name. In triage they measured me to still be at six centimeters and my contractions calmed down, so they sent me home again. I then got to spend the whole week at home! I was grateful for the extra week to spend with Evan. It was really hard to be away from him for so long when I was in the hospital. He spent the week night at Grandma’s house so dad could sleep with me at the hospital. During my home week we also got to have some friends spend the weekend with us! Lynae, Ky, Logan, and Summer came to visit and go to a haunted house (your dad and I did not join them because we don’t like scary things). That Saturday I also got to go to karaoke night with my mom, aunts, sisters, and cousins! They kept telling me I had to sit still and couldn’t dance at all because they didn’t want me going back into labor.
On October 24th I got admitted to the Riverton Hospital after having contractions again. This was the third time I went to get checked at a hospital, and each time was after I brought baked goods home from your grandma’s house. Dad said that there were absolutely no more baked goods coming home from grandma’s house ever again! When the nurse checked me she said I was dilated to a six + and that my contractions were happening, but not consistent. She said you probably weren’t joining our family tonight, but that I wasn’t going back home either. We started a second round of the betamethasone shots and got me settled into bed for the night with monitors on to watch your heartrate and my contractions. Both times I was in the hospital they had these monitors on until I got moved to an antepartum room (a room in the mother baby unit to free up a delivery room, since I wasn’t in active labor). At this point you were 33 weeks and two days. You had stayed in longer than Evan had, he made it to 32 weeks and 4 days, so I was ready to meet you! This was a hard hospital stay because I was getting tired of hospital food and being alone and bored all day. Your dad would go to work during the day, and spend the night with me. Evan spent his nights with grandma again. Once the weekend hit dad spent the nights at home with Evan. The hardest part of this hospital stay was how many times my IV had to be replaced! I had one IV that worked the entire time I was in the Murray hospital, but had to get 6-7 IV pokes at the Riverton hospital. My IV lines kept dying every time they weren’t in active use, so when they would come to flush my IV once a day my skin would bulge up really gross because the saline wasn’t going into my vein! I also had to get poked multiple times because they had a hard time getting an IV to take in some spots. My least favorite IV was the one they put right in the back of my left hand.
Birth
On the night of the 28th I was alone at the hospital. I woke up a few times because my contractions were hurting me, but it was late/early morning so I didn’t want to go back to labor and delivery and wake up your dad yet. Around 4:30 I woke up from contractions and also had to use the restroom, so I finally got up and going. When I went to the restroom I found that I was bleeding a little bit, so I decided it was finally time to call my nurse. My nurse came and brought me over to labor and delivery where they checked me and found that I was still dilated to six +, but that I was fully effaced and my water was very very bulgy. I texted dad at 5:15, as they were checking me, that it was finally going to be baby time! Grandma and Grandpa Bake beat dad to the hospital by a couple minutes, and Grandma came in to be with me. When dad got to the hospital he gave Evan to Grandpa and came in as well. While I was waiting for them to get there I got my epidural ordered and it was getting placed as they arrived. It didn’t hurt much to get it placed, but it is still a little nerve wracking to think about a giant needle being used to thread an IV into my back! I love epidurals though, once I had that placed I layed back and relaxed until it was go time. I don’t know if I was more excited to meet you or to know that I could finally leave the hospital the next day. I was also excited to eat again! I spent the whole time I was in the labor and delivery room regretting that I didn’t eat a few of the doughnuts on my nightstand before calling my nurse!
A little before 9:30 the on-call doctor came to break my water. I didn’t get to have Dr. Peacock deliver you because she was unavailable that weekend. I knew she would be, so I was expecting to have a random doctor deliver you. I didn’t fully believe that you were actually going to be coming until she came to break your water. I was seriously so so excited! After the doctor, Denise Boudreaux-Nippert, broke my water she put an internal monitor on your head to keep a better eye on your heart rate. The nurse put a towel under me and every time I moved more and more amniotic fluid came out! They also stated a small amount of pitocin to help regulate my contractions so you could come.
The nurse told me to call her back if I felt like I needed to push or felt a lot of pressure in my butt. Around 11 I called her back after starting to feel a ton of pressure in my butt every time a contraction came. She checked me and I was dilated to a ten! She told me not to push and left to get the delivery team. As the delivery team was getting ready my nurse came back to help me do some practice pushes. She had me push three times per contraction, for 10 seconds each time. Once she made sure you were descending she had me wait for the team to get in the room. She showed your dad your head and he saw that you had a lot of dark hair! Evan was super blond and basically bald, so I was so surprised to hear that you had dark hair! Once the doctor came into the room she lowered the mirror to let me see your delivery, and it was go time! I really liked having a mirror because I could see you getting closer to coming out and I knew that I was pushing the “right” way. Because of my epidural your delivery didn’t hurt at all and I didn’t know if I was doing things right! I was expecting at least some pain, but all I felt was pressure. I was nervous about it because my epidural was almost out, so I couldn’t push the button for an extra dose. I only had what was left in my body to get you out! I pushed through four or five contractions and you were here! Your dad cut your cord and the doctor put you on my chest. You had swallowed some blood when you were being born, but were still able to cry initially. I started sobbing because I didn’t think that I was going to be able to hold you! When I had Evan they showed him to me before taking him to NICU triage, but I didn’t get to touch him. I actually found out that I was going to get to hold you when they put a blanket on my chest while I was pushing. I almost started crying right then, but realized I wouldn’t be able to push effectively if I was sobbing!


I was beyond grateful that I got to hold you following your birth. After a minute the nurses took you over to the corner of the room and did your NICU triage while I was getting sewn up. You weighed 4 lbs 3 oz and were 17 inches long, just like your big brother! When you were born your APGAR score was a seven, after five minutes it was still a seven. At the ten minute mark your APGAR score was down to a 4, you were having a hard time breathing and your heart rate was very low. The NICU team had to force air into your lungs. The next few minutes were tense as the nurses worked on getting you oxygen and convincing you to breathe again. Your dad was initially standing by me and holding my hand and Grandma Bake was over by you, but Grandma made him switch spots with her once you started having trouble breathing. Your dad did not want to leave me, but went over to be closer to you. Luckily you started doing better quickly and the NICU team brought you over to say goodbye before taking you up to the NICU. I was so glad that I got to be with you for the first little bit of your life, even though it was scary to watch you struggle and be unable to even hold your tiny hand. 
Dad went with you and the NICU team to get you settled, then met me back in my postpartum room after I was allowed to get moved. I spent a few hours relaxing and snacking (man those doughnuts tasted good) before I got to go see you. You were so sweet and perfect, though it was hard to see your face with the big CPAP mask on. I stayed by your bed until I got close to throwing up (because I shouldn’t have been standing so much) and went back to my room to rest again. I got to hold you for the second time later that night when I visited again.
You spent the next 25 days in the NICU. You came off the CPAP machine quickly and didn’t need oxygen aid after that. Even though you had a rough start to your breathing, you ended up doing great and all the nurses asked why you threw such a fit when you were born! I went home the day after you were born, I was ready to sleep in my own bed again and was so excited to take Evan trick-or-treating for the first time, but came back to visit you every day that I could. I tried to stay and help during at least one of your cares (diaper change, temperature check, foot oxygen probe switch, and meal), but it was hard with Evan at home! Our amazing ward organized babysitting so I could leave Evan each day to see you. One week your dad took Evan to Saint George while he was playing in a laser tag tournament. That was wonderful because I got to spend so much time with you! There were a few times I couldn’t come visit you because either your dad or Evan was sick. Those days were so hard because I knew I had to keep you safe, but I cried thinking about you being alone in your box all day. I just wanted you to get held for at least a little while each day! I know the nurses took amazing care of you, but I wanted you to know how much I loved you.

On November 22nd I got a call asking when I wanted to come pick you up! I wasn’t expecting to bring you home that day so I was so excited! I didn’t even visit you the day before because your dad was feeling a little sick. I called your dad home from work and we sat in your room while you did your car seat test, then took you home! You didn’t have to come home on oxygen like your brother did. I was so grateful because I would’ve had to spend all day trying to keep Evan away from your tubes! We brought you to surprise Grandma Bake, then took you to meet your brother for the first time. We were so grateful to have our family together right before Thanksgiving! We love you so much and are so glad that you’re part of our family!
Love,
Mommy
Oct 3rd - Contractions Started (30 weeks)
Oct 5th - 8th - Babysit Roze (30 weeks and 3 days - 30 and 6)
Oct 7th - 1cm Dilated and First Betamethasone Shot (30 weeks and 5 days)
8th - 2nd Betamethasone Shot (30 weeks and 6 days)
October 9th - Maternity Photos (31 weeks)
Oct 10th - Dr Appointment - Dilated to 3cm (31 weeks and 1 day)
Oct 10 -15 - Murray Hospital (31 weeks and 1 day - 31 weeks and 6 days)
16th - Hospital Check at Riverton, Sent Home (32 weeks)
21-23 - Friend Weekend (32 weeks and 5 days - 33 weeks)
24th - 30th - Back to Riverton Hospital (Admitted at 33 weeks and 2 days)
29th - Your Birthday! (33 weeks and 6 days)